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it kills me every time i look at myself. i'm overweight, sick almost all the time, i have skin irritations and allergies. i hate this, i hate how i feel-negative, i know. I've tried it all, aerobics, gym, diets, crash diets, "the secret", but erm, i could never ever stick to any of it. i know there is a good chance no one will read this, but i just want to convince myself that there is a public out there and their watching and keeping track of my progress(if there is any) so starting from tomorrow, i'm going to try to be healthy, TRY. i will go on a good and healthy diet, and i will work out, i think i'll do a half hour work out starting tomorrow morning. whats my goal? well lets start out with 10kgs(22pounds?) by March. but this week's goal would be 1kg, yes, just 1. i want to see if i can get a start, its been long since I've lost even 1 kg, my weight has been spiraling out of control for a long time now, its time to get into track and stop being a dumb ass. will keep myself updated on this blogging thing. :)